set backs

I'm having major set backs right now. Part of it is becasue I'm just so stressed, andI don't have the support. I don't have any support here! I have a friend to work out with, occasionally. My husband doesnt' work out with me, and even now, I am more of a parent to him then a wife. I want to loose 20 lbs by April 13th!!! This weekend i've had way too many sweets for my own good. I have no motivation! plus, it's raining outside most of the time.... and i'd rather just work out in the great outdoors.... I want to go swimming, but I dont' have the money for it. I'm ashamed to say that my mom gave me money for it, and I had to spend it on gas instead! the money stress is getting to me! it's too much, and as much as i try, it's just not makign anything else better!