another year

Another year gone by, and I'm back. I didn't do 1/2 bad last year, but you know what... stress got to me, and though i didn't really gain a lot of weight, I didn't loose any either. I changed so that I'm working out at Curves again. i like it so much better then Healthsport. Actually, i loved the yoga on Healthsport, and I wish I could do that again. I really miss yoga, but, Curves works better for me as far as working out. So, back in August, I started back at Curves. I haven't lost any weight since then, in fact the holidays and extra stress have made it so that I have gained again. As of the beginning of the year, I was 176 lbs! I don't like it. I don't want to be like this any more. Stress, however is not good for me, and the stress combines with the lack of support is also hard for me. I get stressed, and I go for the Pepsi or the Chocolate!! The weekends come, and I've been SO good over the whole week that I just let go, and eat everything I can that is bad for me. I lay around and do nothing. I get poor sleep. It's not healthy. I don't want this any more! and yet, I get more sympathy and i guess a form of love from being like this. It's my pay off. I want my pay off to be how good I look in clothes. That's what I want my payoff to be. I had a good week, 2 weeks ago... Last week was not as good, but I still got out every day of the week to Curves. So far, I'm starting off this week poorly... THat is why I'm doing this. I want to get used to journally about my healthiness again. No one will read it, i'm sure. Do i care? no, not really. It's for me, and if someone reads it, great... then you can try to support me. We all need support.

Here's my Healthy Goals for this year, and they are not all physicallly healthy goals...I want not only my body to be healthy, but also my mind and spirit.

1. Exercise daily: Curves, Running/walking/swimming
2. Volunteer: at church, at some other organization, at the boys' school
3. To spend time with my boys and with my husband, and as a family - this time is to be as cheap as possible and consentrate more on quality time.
4. To participate in the Foggy Bottoms Milk Run 2010.
5. Start a savings account.

That's what I have so far, for a start. The only thing I have started is the exercising, and we've started doing a little quality time with everyone.... I've done at least 1 step towards volunteering, and a savings account... don't think that's going to get started until February, but even if I put only 5 bucks in a month, that's better then nothing!

So, 2010, here's to a new year. Here's to trying to keep stress down and out! that is my biggest issue!!

Oh, and I forgot, playing more music is another goal for my mind and spirit! It really has been making me happy.